Accepting.
I guess that's what I am. An accepting creature. Aye, I'll die of emoness if I don't. Ha and that's not really exactly how I want to end my life, you know? I didn't run at all this week. As in really run. Stupid LYC made me pack his pig sty this morning so I couldn't go for a nice run. I need to sweat all these emotions out. Crying would be alright, but I can't seem to do just that.
Had a really long day today. Thursday, dang. All the subjects and no PE because Boey wanted the period for extra chem. Don't really mind but starting and ending a day w chem is a killer. He got my group to stay back too but still, didn't do presentation. Sorry guys, made you all wait. PLX is back and we were laughing like crazy on the way home on 61.
Playing with NZ girls tomorrow. How cool is that?
And claudia's back w good legs.
It's so wasted.
I think I have 0 arm-strength if I can't even ace this. So what if I can pass (freaking) hard passes that can smash the life out of someone? It doesn't seem to help me ace this dang inclined chinup. Argh, getting gold for NAPFA seems so far away from me. Tsk, just this one item. How pathetic! I mean even
if I get into the team, I can't represent school because I got a dang bronze for NAPFA, which I am not proud of at all. I cried, I felt like such a loser. Ah, I want to retest but I'll be 14 by then. That makes NAPFA one level harder, dang. WHY? Pathetic 3 chinups, pffft.
I have to thank cynthia, claudia, sarah, yeyun, trik and whoever that tried to cheer me up because it helped quite a bit. Oh and thanks trik for smashing eggtart and toppling my curry. Don't cry over spilled curry (lesson learnt). LAST AND MOST IMPT,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIM YUYAN!Stay all smart/clever and um, hiong okay. I love you and RVNB team!
11:00 PM
I know, I've got lots to update about.
(Sorry for the suspense, ha)
Nats weren't as good as we expected. Lost the first 2 matches and well, won the last. Matches we lost were not because we were lousier but it's our lack of communication and teamwork. What made me really happy is the huge comeback in the last match. I felt the team spirit once again. We fought for it, yes we did and I know it. Thank you girls for everything up till now and I will miss working as a team again, really. MK asked me a really sensitive question aft the last match. I wonder how we got to that subject but anyway, she asked if I was okay about not playing. That's a really .. weird question huh? I felt tears welling up but I know I shouldn't be crying (because I'm sad) right after the match so I laughed it off, saying I'm very optimistic. What bullshit! Of course I wasn't okay. Who would be when you have good vision of play but your speed suck like hell and can only play in the first round of the entire competition? Pfft, I
really want to play. It's so (freaking) hard when I really like something but yet, I suck at it.
Well, life has been filled with study, netball, basketball, dinner-dates and catching up w friends. Nothing much though, routined and all. It's kind of late already so I shall go grab my sleep in order to get back to training tomorrow. Weights/train the juniors. Whatever it is, it's nice to be back on court again.
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.
8:41 PM
Fine, letting my blog rot away is a bad idea. Well, it's not my fault alright! I was just too busy (or maybe lazy) to turn on the computer that my older brother ain't using. Whatever it is, I can't seem to use my incredibly good English (ha!) into my essays and reader responses. Some things got to change! Argh, I'm pissed with my lousy answers and sucky results. I know I've got loads to update about but well, not today? Pfft, sorry.
(I need to get my life back on track, shit)
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